Beloved back time

Is another few hours to go then my beloved will come back...

can't wait to see him..

miss him damn muchie...

baby...ILY...

MUackszzzxx..

Day 4 without you

My birthday...

NO special celebration...

Just hang out with some friends at night...

We go Taipei Walker yum cha...

They get me a little surprise...

Send me a birthday cake..

Feel a bit disappointed coz baby is not around...

But is okay..

Baby gonna come back very soon...

Miss him damn muchie...

And Thx for all the birthday wish from the friends...

Happy Birthday to Myself...

I Miss You...

 

*The Photo will upload soon*

*Stay Tune*

Day 3 without you

The day 3 with baby with me..

Miss him alot...

Yesterday night went to yam cha with sis..

Damn funny...

We really chit-chat alot of things..

Today morning as normal went to church..

After that went to MV with friends...

Angela, Xiao Yi, Claira, and my sis...

We went to Restaurant Feng Lai for lunchie...

The food there is nice...

Next time can have a try again with Baby..

Baby...

Faster come back....

After that I went to grab my new Babe home...

The GN...

I Love it very much...

Baby...can't wait for ur back...

I miss you...

Then we went to Austin Chase for tea time..

Chit chat there...

Night time went for dinner with Family...

And today sis bought her new lappie...

Same as my series but her one is smaller...

My one is longer...

Coz my one is 15.6''....

Baby...

I really hope time can pass faster a bit..

Quite few days didn't hugx you and see you...

Miss you so badly....

:(

:(

Day 2 without you

Today was the day 2 you were not with me...

This was also the day 2 you been at Taiwan..

Early in the morning,

I went to work...

Keep thinking of you...

My baby...

I miss you damn muchie...

Today quite busy at office...

From morning until finished work..

I non-stop facing the PC...

Non-stop typing the creditor purchase...

When the time to get back home...

Suddenly I feel so sad...

Because normally after work will go and meet baby first before went back home..

But today.....

I have to back home alone...

Cannot meet with Baby...

Night time just hang out with mummy...

Went to Carefour and bought something home...

After that went yam cha with Sis...

Feel so happy that all the sis getting so hang fuk...

All of them in a great and good relationship and finally they meet someone who love them alot...

Yea...Same to me...

I feel myself very hang fuk also...

Because I have you, Johnson Hue...

You are the one who pamper me muchie...

The one who I can always cry to and laugh to...

The one I cannot stay without...

Baby.....

I Love you...

I miss you so muchie...

Muacksxx.... :)

I Love you...

Day 1 without you

Today was the first day Baby been at Taiwan...

Damn miss him...

From the morning I waited his call...

When I go college..

I cannot concentrated..

But luckily today was just the lab class...

Doing lab and prepared for quiz...

The quiz is quite easy..

10min then I done...

After that I faster went back home...

Baby with no calls and msg also...

Wait wait wait again...

Finally..

Baby give the first called...

After that I go take a nap...

Woke up in the evening then Mummy said she going out with dad and sis...

OMG...

Stay alone again at home...

Miss the boyfie so muchie...

Don't know why...

Just miss him damn a lot...

Haix...

Stupid again...

Tears dropped again....

Fxck myself....

I hate to be alone....

*cry*

Damn Fxcking lonely night...HAte it..

♥IMY♥

Now is almost 10pm...

12 hours to go..

Then my baby will travel to Taiwan...

Damn Damn Damn....

''mm sek dak'' him....

Don't know why this time feeling different with last time he went to Bangkok...

Last time when he go i will 'mm sek dak' but 

not same as this time...

This time like super duper 'mm sek dak' him...

Just like quite a big break time between us...

Don't like such feelings....

Haix...

But you never know it... :(

Sad sad sad...

Now just hope that the day u not with me then the bloggie will acc me..

For this few days i will keep updating my bloggie...

Tell you what I am doing for the whole day...

People always said with LOL (Laugh Out Loud)

But I said COL ( Cry Out Loud)

Baby.......

I MISS YOU DAMN MUCHIE.... 

:((((

When You Are With Me...

My smile is as pure as the morning dew

My desires are as free as ever

My soul dances like never

When you are with me,

My fears are afraid to face you

My tears never dare to come out

When you are with me,

I'm the true me

When you are with me,

I'm complete .. ♥ :) ♥

I feel BAD..

Feel so bad so bad so bad...

This Year is the bad year for me...

I hate to being 20 soon...

My Birthday...

Haix...DOn't ever want to talk about it...

Gone Gone GOne...

The boyfie is going to Taiwan...

I very 'mm sek dak' him...

Some more go during my birthday...

Haix...

MOre sad sad sad....

Really don't hope to get through the Birthday alone...

So lonely...

Should I sing I am Mrs LOnely...

I have nobody...

OMG...

Fxcking annoyed...

*cry*

 :(((

Lonely Birthday... :(((

I LOVE YOU

Recently is not that good...

We keep on argue..

erm...cannot said argue actually..

We are just like got different opinion in some topic.

I know I am a failure gf...

Always don't know what is on your mind...

But baby....

Trust me...

I do really Love you...

Is a very damn like loving you..

Everytime when we had little argue..

I will feel unhappy...

Because sweet couple should never had arguement..

And I'm so sorry...

I'm sorry for my hot temper...

But thanks to accept all my bad attitude...

I think no one could like you that can accept me so completely...

Even when I'm rude * he said I never be polite also*

Even when I have bad temper..

Even when I always make u angry..

But you still Love me....

I've promised to myself...

I will always love you care you as I can..

Baby...Maybe now ur faithful to me is over...

But is okay...

I will catch it back..

Baby is going to Taiwan in very soon...

I will miss u damn muchie....

Baby...

Thanks for be with me for this 7 months....

I hope that we can be as long as we can make it....

I Love you so muchie....muacks.x....

I Love you...muacksxxx...

I Hate This Night

I hate this Saturday night...

Damn suffering night for me..

Maybe for you again..

We are not argue...

But for me..

I don't like this kind of feelings..

No matter what happened...

There is some idea can be solve...

But if you choose to pretend like nothing..

I am sorry..

I cannot do that...

The feeling is really bad..

And I can't pretend like nothing...

So at last...

I cried....

Cry out is my best released...

Even I know you will think that's the way for someone that immature will do that..

But yes...

I cried....

I'm hurt....

I feel so down...

Very Moody....

I know...

Is not easy for 2 person to meet and to be together..

And yet we are...

Is been how hard we tolerate with each other for been together for this long...

So I hope that don't pretend like strangers...

Don't pretend like we don't know each other...

DOn't pretend like can't feel each other feelings...

I know sometimes my temper is not that good...

But sometimes your tune also not really good...

NO one is perfect...

But is depend on how much affort we put for this relationship....

I Just feel like no one I could talk to...

The mood is just like shit...

Fxcking Moody now...

Off to Bed..

I Hate this night very much...

Fxck Off....

:((((

I Hate this Night....:(((

♥TGIF♥

Thanks God is FRIDAY..

Today was a special day for me...

Feel so Happy...

Because finally I collected back all the money...

Night time...

I went for movie with the loved one..

My beloved Baby...

WE went for movie-Man on a Ledge

Quite nice movie...

You guys can go watch...

Next week...

My Baby went to Taiwan...*SAD*

Feel so unhappy..

Because when my birthday..

He is not around...

The first year we can celebrate but his not around with me...

Same as last year his birthday also he not celebrate with me...

Haix...

Even I'm not happy with that..

But I can't do anything...

Baby go Taiwan for important things...

I have to be understanding gf..

So is okay...

I can get through the Birthday with my friends...

Baby faster come back ya...

Will miss you ya...

Love ya...

Muacksxxx.....

Man on a Ledge... :)

♥Marriage♥

“When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.


Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?


I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!


With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.


The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.


In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.


This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.


I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.


My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.


On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.


On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed -dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push through with the divorce.— At least, in the eyes of our son—- I’m a loving husband….

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.

So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

#Someone who send this and ask me to read...After I read...I cried...Tears dropped...Is really touch my heart...

So this story to tell us that we have to appreciate the one who loves us and the one we loved... ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Now...I will appreciate every moment that I can spent with my beloved....

Marriage

14.2.2012-My Valentine's Day

The Valentine's Day of 2012..

A day that full of sweet memories with my Baby...

Before that Baby had disappointed me..

He said that he forgot that tomorrow is the valentine's day..

Because is the first year we have to celebrate with each other..

HOw can you forget??!!!

I no need a special candle light dinner...

I no need a bouquet of flower *Buy flower waste money*

I no need Diamond...

I no need Chocolate...

For what I want is I can spent this day with you...

Even you can bring me to the mamak stall also I'll be very happy..

But after that actually baby didn't forget..

He just want to give me a BIG surprise...

Ya...I am really Surprise....

8p.m Baby came my house fetched me..

After that he brought me somewhere...

I keep asking him where we go...

But he keep answering with after we reach you will know...

Alright... I stopped asking any question...

Finally...Baby brought me to The Federal Hotel K.L for our Candle Light Dinner...

The restaurant is very special...

It is a Revolving Restaurant...

Just like KL Tower...

First time been there...

Is really nice and romantic...*Hahahahahahahahaha*

We had our Candle Light Dinner * Actually is Battery Light*

The menu is really special...

The meal for boy and girl are different...

The food there is quite special and delicious...

The important is I really happy to spent this moment with Baby....

This is the first time I had one dinner for almost 3 hours..

Is really a great memory for me...

After the candle light dinner...

We went to meet with baby's sister...

We go Coffee Berry yam cha...

Coco is with us too...

After yam cha then Baby fetched me home...

When I reached my home...

Baby tricked me go take back my heels at the back of the car...

But actually he gave me a BIG Surprise...

Baby bought me a purple Swarovski Pen... *evil smile*

I do really love it....

And I present Baby my home-made CHocolate....

Baby...

THanks for the night that you had gave me..

I Love you so muchie....

And I hope we can spent more and more years of Valentine's Day...

Baby....

I'll always LOve you....

muacksxx.....

Candle Light Dinner...

HIS: Tiger Prawn with Guacamole Salsa & Tomato Foudue

Her: Seared Scallop with Light Cucumber Skin Puree

Menu of the valentine's dinner

My beloved Baby

The bunny and I 

Her: Poached Salmon with dill & Hazelnut cream

ILY BUnny

His: Lobster Bisque with cream Royal

Bunny with menu of the day

No of table we seat

A stage with love decoration...

Her: Asparagus Essence with Beet Root Jullien

His: Roast Leg of Chicken with Pepper Juslie

His: Lime Sherbet with orange pekoe tea

Her: Lime Sherbet with mint tea

His: Passion Fruit mousse with Strawberries

The bunny and the Swarovski from beloved..

HOme-made chocolate for him

Love you

I Love you...my beloved

Bunny finished up the Anise cream

Bitter & Sweet

My purple Swarovski pen from Baby

Strawberries with Anise Cream

Love you baby...

Happy Valentine's Day to my Beloved

Want to shout out loud to my baby boy..

Baby...Happy Valentine's Day...

I Love you....

I still remember how we meet each other...

And how we get contact with each other..

Today was the 211 days we had been together..

And this is the first year of Valentine's Day we been together...

I hope that there is more and more festival i can celebrate with you.. 

I appreciated every moment that spent with you...

Even if we got argue but we will be alright very soon...

I miss the day I chase u to bath..

And you said don't want...

I miss the day when we hugx each other and watched the football match..

MU vs Liverpool...

The day we fight for the phone...

I miss when I said I want to eat HOneymoon then baby fetch me there...

I miss the day that when I cravings for Cake then Baby bought me cake...

I miss the day when I said I miss you then you come find me...

I miss the day when I send sad symbol to you then baby call me immediately..

Every moment we been together....

Is our sweetest memories....

Baby...I Love you....

JOhnson Hue....

I'll always Love you....

Muackxsxx....

Happy Valentine's Day...

Recently Life

From the beginning of 2012

I non-stop 'pou ing'...

From the day of Terrence's Birthday..

We all club at Movida for his celebration...

First time been there...

Still okay for the environment...

But it was the drunkie night i been there...

Drunk like nobody..

Then after that is the chinese new year...

During CNY I went to G6 for Coco's birthday..

And the next day I been at KL @live Club...

Party Rock Night...

Last week...

3 of Friends came from Sg..

So we went to Mist Club on last Friday Night...

Another drunkie night i been there...

WtF...

Then the next day we brought them to Malacca..

And club at Malacca New club- Mixx...

First time been there also...

Quite nice there..

Can have another try again...

Last wednesday...

Because of the OT buy 1 free 1 promotion..

Our gangs went there for the beer night..

2 barrel we had ordered...

OMG....

Then yesterday...

Mist night again...

But not really fun there...

Can't believe that myself can 'pou' til this over....

Almost every week i am in the club...

WTF...

Have to change back to normal life...

No more drunkie night...

No more alcohol and IB...

Change change change....

This week had watched few movie...

I Love HK...

Damn funny and nice...

Another show is The Wedding Diary...

Quite funny also....

Tired Life....

Rest...

I Love HK 2012

The Wedding Diary

:(

此时此刻

无法用言语来表达我的心情

每当我用华语时

有人就会懂我的状况真的不太好

真的很不好

希望你们都没看到

对于某人

我实在是不懂该说什么才好

一时三刻

你说放下你

真的有点难

但是请原谅我对你的不理不睬

对你的冷言冷语

对你的忽冷忽热

对不起

也许你觉得我狠心

但是以后你就会明白

我这样做

对你才是最好的

希望你明白

谢谢你对我一直以来的

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关心

还有你那么爱我

谢谢

Sorry

I'm so SORRY

I know no matter how much sorry did I said..

How many things I explain..

It couldn't cure the hurt that I have given to you...

I'm so Sorry..

I really hard to believe that you will forgive me..

I think that we will be over already..

When the night you hold my hand and ran out from  the club..

I know that we are Real..

What's real??

You have proved me that you were really care about me..

When the moment you push me away from you..

My heart is breaking...

You never know how scare I am that will losing you...

The next day..

When you keep asking me to explain..

I know that you were giving me the chance to get back to you..

The first time that we can told each other for our own feelings.

I can felt that how hard we in love with each other...

When I cry on your shoulder...

That's the first time I dare to cry out in front of you...

First time that I no need to hide any feeling to you...

I thought that we were over...

And you will never treat me as ur girl anymore..

But I'm wrong...

You still treat me good...

Now...

Every moment we been together..

I want to capture down..

As that was the memories between us for future...

MR. J.... I lOVE You...

The next Sorry is to you...MR. B...

I am so so sorry to you...

Just hope that you can get someone better...

And forget everything about us...

Just hope your future life will be better without me...

Take care... :)

I'm so SORRY...